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| you know what? i can't believe i actually spent time defending you to an extent. i realise now that you are as much the dickhead that i was told you were. its insulting to me when you act so fake that i can smell it from a mile away and expect me to believe that it's the real you. i was always the type of person who thought that everyone was decent to an extent so i extended that gratitude to you. and yes. you WERE different. you were different in the fact that you didn't deserve it. at least other people have the balls to admit their ulterior motives. you just continued to put on a fake pretence even though you didn't need to in the first place; and like i said before, IT'S JUST PLAIN INSULTING. i would have rather you not pretend you cared and shower me with compliments and affection just to get what you want. i'm not some naive schoolgirl who you need to con into believing you care to get what you want. i haven't fallen for your crap, but i'm just frustrated that i actually thought you were decent for even a few days... but no. you're just as bad as your reputation is. and i was wrong. there's no better person to get to know. should have just listened to what he had to say about you. | | |
| cathy's 19 facts of life. - don't overthink things. first impressions and intuition will serve you well for the rest of your life.
- if you're up at 3am frustrated and confused about why you are feeling something that you shouldn't be, go to sleep and if the feeling REALLY shouldn't be there, it will go away when you wake up.
- if there's nothing good to say, it's best to say nothing at all. (usually)
- parents are smarter than you think they are. just because they don't say anything doesn't mean they don't know that you are probably making out with that boy/girl that you just left your house with.
- in fact, people in general are smarter than you think they are. just because they don't say anything doesn't mean your cryptic messages aren't really cryptic to them at all.
- once you start expecting, you set yourself up for disappointment.
- boys will always say girls are all difficult. girls will always say boys are frustrating. don't try to convince anyone otherwise because it is not wise to disturb mother nature.
- always give, but not impose advice upon people. if they don't listen to your advice, you can always say "i told you so" later on.
 - never think you know everything there is to know. use the knowledge you already have to make wise decisions, but always keep an open mind and always know when you are wrong.
- sometimes one word is all it takes to make someone feel better. usually it's "sorry" or "thankyou".
- don't hand out compliments/sentiment like people hand flyers out on a street corner. they will mean A LOT more if you use it sparingly.
- always be cynical, not pessimistic.
- typing in chinese on your blog constantly isn't a good idea. people will think you have something to hide. which leads on to...
- ...if you want to hide something, hide it properly. don't break it up into pieces and dress them up in costume then leave them lying around in public.
- don't let someones faults cancel out their merits. a good friend is still just as good after a fight as before.
- if you've noticed something, chances are someone else has noticed it before you did.
- don't let yourself be an open book, but don't lock yourself inside a safe either. make sure it takes at least some effort flip your pages and read some of the contents, but not all. no one finds 100% transparent people interesting.
- the concept of friendship is very malleable.
- life is full of ups and downs. but if we didn't have downtime, we wouldn't appreciate the good times nearly as much as we should...
...and eventually will take them for granted. never take anything for granted, savour every piece of goodness that life throws your way, but know that there will be more for later.
****** another year gone. thankyou to everyone who made this day special. especially the person who took precious study time to keep me company. lots of [platonic] love, - cathy =) ?珊瑚海 - 周杰伦 | | |
| 突然改变这么大... 感觉好像不正常... 不过... 会不会是我又想的太多了吗? 你说你能听的懂. 但是你真的能听的懂吗? | | |
| 听了一天音乐... 我也没有莎士比亚的写作文的天分... 只好用别人写的歌词形容我的心情... but they don't describe it accurately... ****** 超过了友情, 还不到爱情...
i don't think that we've actually gone past that; not mentally anyway. some people may beg to differ given the circumstances though... 当友情两字不足形容我情感
don't get me wrong, it's because i don't know how to describe it AT ALL. 他也对我说 "你说我像一个小孩..."
i know i say that, but that has nothing to do with naivety... chances are i've already been decrypted... ...但是不用我说他就明白.
though i hope i'm not being as thoroughly understood as i think i am... 我好像掉进爱情悬崖.
but it's far from love. 每一次想开口但不如保持安静...
so many times, i wanted to say how i REALLY felt and stop lying. ****** 哈哈. 周杰伦好可笑...
"你这是玩的什么东西呀?"
"扯瞵啊."
"扯瞵?"
"mmm."
"怎么声音好像不大对啊..."
"什么声音"
"我说你讲话的声音啊!" ?扯 - 周杰伦 | | |
| ... and i hate to say it, but i think this one has finally been pushed to its limits.
maybe i was mistaken. | | |
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